I spent like 3 hours journaling yesterday because I felt like I wasn't quite in alignment. I just felt off and easily triggered. I had many journaling prompts, including speaking with my intuition and I came to realize a lot of things.
One of the tasks I did was honestly admitting where I wasn't acting as if. What areas of my life was I just not being my best self? Through this, I was able to pinpoint fear. I allowed fear to take the driver's seat and it slowly began to morph into shame. The actions I was taking were fear driven. I was so lost in planning for the worst and trying to make things happen that I was blocking my own happiness.
Now, I'm a writer and I have filled several journals before, so I had no issue with journaling for three hours to really begin the work of dismantling my fear and returning to alignment. But, that might not be your thing, so I want to boil this down to how I broke out of this.
- Don't get angry at fear. Like everything else, the intention was to protect you. You are fearful because you are trying to protect yourself from something. You don't want to demonize this experience because it will just breed more negativity.
- Acknowledge that the fear does not actually protect you. In fact, it's blocking you from living your best life, achieving your dreams and taking rational and inspired action. Recognize that while things may be scary now, they are temporary. Allowing yourself to linger in fear will only keep you in that state for more time. You will find that you have spent so much time putting out fires and stressing that life has just straight passed you by.
- Remember that better days are coming and things are not as bad as they seem. It is the emotion that you are attaching to them that are blowing them out of proportion. I found it very helpful to just allow myself to dream. As I did so, I got more and more excited about my future and began to take back the control I had unintentionally given up.
- Allow yourself to move through the emotion and remind yourself that you are fucking awesome. Seriously start listing all of the ways you are incredible. You don't have to fight to get the emotion to go away. Allow it to exist as and gently challenge it. For me, I felt like I was powerless and there was nothing I could do. I had to challenge this assumption by asking myself why it mattered to me if this situation was resolved, if it would really changed my entire identity if it wasn't, and if there was actually nothing that I could do. You'll find that fear and shame like to exaggerate.
That's it, Queen! Talk you next time.